Monday, November 30, 2009

The Purse

Inspiration can come from almost anywhere. All you have to do is open up your eyes and see. During our book club meeting I noticed one of the purses (pictured above) of one of the gals at the meeting. It reminded me of a purse from the 1950’s or 1960’s. A story started to develop in my head.

Walking down the street Candice entered Granny’s Thrift Shop just for the fun of it. She wasn’t seeking anything to buy. She was saving for retirement and careful about spending money. Even though retirement was in about ten years she couldn’t help being frugal. She was amazed at the variety of items they gathered in such a small space. On a shelf next to a pair of shoes, a purse caught her eye.

She was drawn to it. Suddenly she was eight years old again.


“Momma, when are we going to the toy store?” Candice asked with a big smile on her face. “Soon, baby. You have to finish your breakfast before we can go.” Her mother stroked the top of her head. I finished as quickly as she could. They were going to the new toy store in town. It was the biggest one in three counties Momma said. I just couldn’t imagine how so many toys would fit in a store that big. “Let me grab my purse and clean your hands and we’ll be on our way.” I sat up front. Excitement filled every fiber in my being. Momma’s purse was right next to me. One day when I’m older, Momma said she would get me a purse just like hers. After Momma made sure I had my seat belt on, it was off to the toy store. Momma stopped the car at the light and looked at me. The smile on her face was stunning. It was the most beautiful face I had ever seen.


Candice picked up the purse. She had to have it. She checked the price tag and was heartbroken that she didn’t have enough money to purchase it. She held it in hands as if she was holding on to a priceless jewel.


“Look, Candy girl. See the store up ahead?” Momma said with a smile. Before I could answer, my world was forever changed. As momma stepped on the gas another car came from the left and rammed into the driver’s side door.

Holding the purse tightly, she walked to the cashier. She tried not cry, but a tear fell from her eye and rolled down her cheek. “Excuse me.” She said as she cleared her throat. Taking a deep breath she continued, “I was wondering if you could hold this purse for me until next week. I don’t have enough right now, but I can give you a partial payment.”

The old woman behind the counter took one look into Candice’s eyes and asked, “Oh, my dear. What’s the matter?”

“I . . . I . . . this purse reminds me of my mother. She had one just like it.”

“Is she no longer with you?”


I remembered being in the hospital, holding on to mother’s purse with a bruise around my waist where the seat belt was fasten. I couldn’t get the image of mother’s bloodied body from my mind. Momma didn’t move. Her head had cracked the windshield. My world had stopped. I tried to scream for help but no sound came out. I didn’t speak for weeks. I just held on to her purse.

“No. She died when I was little. My aunt came over to help pack away my mother’s things . . . and this purse . . . it was taken by mistake.”

The old woman placed her hand on top of Candice’s. “It’s okay honey. You’re the only one who has ever shown any interest in that old thing. You would be doing me a favor if you took it off my hands.”

Now the tears flowed freely. The kindness of this stranger touched her deeply. She managed to say, “Thank you.”

© Nadine Zawacki 2009

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Happy Thanksgiving

Lord I'm thankful for so many things - You, Tom and the kids, family, friends and all that You've given me.

May your day be filled with family, friends, love, joy and happiness. Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Happy Birthday Son

Twenty four years ago today our son joined our family. I was supposed to have another C-section and was scheduled to have him on the 25th. My dad had a hard time with this. He said his grandson will come when God determines it’s time for him to come and not when the doctor said. Mind you, we did not know if we were having a girl or boy, but my dad was convinced he was a boy. Our son agreed with him and he was a day early. He’s still always early. I remember looking into his eyes and falling in love.

As a child he was very active. We would call him “Ricochet Rabbit.” He was fast and always on the move. His tender heart came through when he slowed down enough to show it.

Today, I celebrate his birthday even though he is three thousand miles away, but in my heart I hold him close.

Tom and I couldn’t be prouder of our son. He’s strong, hard working, and handsome (like his pops). I admire how determined he is in pursuing his dreams. I love how focused he is.

I look forward to seeing you at Christmas. Happy Birthday, Son. Your pops and I love you very much.

© Nadine Zawacki 2009

Monday, November 16, 2009

Another Reason Why I’m Chandler

I don’t like to take personality tests. You know the kinds that you answer a million questions to find out what “personality type” you are. Tom on the other hand loves these tests. What ends up happening is he bugs me to take them too.

I once took a test that asked the question, “Which Friends Character Are You?” Tom had nothing to do with it; he likes the more serious types of tests. Believe it or not I was Chandler. Maybe it’s the fact that I crack jokes all the time. Maybe it’s because I have something sarcastic to say (or ten). For the record, I show lots more self control with telling a joke. Those of you who know me are a little scared right now, but you should have seen me 20 years ago.

But this morning I was reminded why there is another reason why I’m the Chandler character – sound effects.

I don’t know about you other ladies out there, but I am horrible at sound effects. The majority of guys are born with this ability. They play cops and robbers or solider and produce all these sounds that sound like guns or bombs.

This morning I tried to imitate the sound of hair being cut by scissors. When Tom gave me that all knowing puzzled look, I told him what sound I was trying to make. He smiled, said he loved me and then made the correct sound of scissors cutting hair. We just laughed.

Here is a clip of Chandler that proves that sometimes these tests do come out correct.



© Nadine Zawacki 2009

P.S. I have been responding to everyone’s comments. It’s not something I’ve done in the past, but just started doing.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Confession Time

They say confession is good for the soul. Let’s see if that’s true. I want to confess something. I hope that you don’t think ill of me when I make this confession.

It all started as I was making some of my home made sauce. Tom’s mom taught me how when we first got married. That was the only thing Tom asked of me and it was a good idea, since I wasn’t Italian. She was fabulous and happy to share her recipe with me. In my house growing up rice and beans and barbeque goat meat was the norm so I didn’t have any idea about meatballs and spaghetti sauce. Anyway, I digress - back to my confession.

As I was cooking up my sauce, I started to pretend I had my own cooking show. If you must know the theme for my show is home cooking with different ethnic foods since I’m of different ethnic backgrounds.

I know I’m not Italian but I’ve made enough sauce in my 28 years of marriage that I’m an honorary Italian.

I also had a name for my show. It was called, “A Pinch of This and Dash of That.” I know what you’re thinking – my friend is nuts. But let me explain. I have a great imagination (one of the reasons why I like to write). I also have a love of cooking and cooking shows. I’ve been told that I’m humorous. I use to act in High School. You put all of those ingredients together and do you know what you get? You get someone pretending they have a cooking show while they cook dinner. Okay, maybe not.

I feel better getting it off my chest.

Now I’ve shared my little confession. What types of creative things do you do? If it’s something you do when no is watching even better.

© Nadine Zawacki 2009

Friday, November 06, 2009

Mirrors

Mirrors are a funny thing. A Fun House of Mirrors have special mirrors that distort your appearance. It’s there for fun. You walk through and see yourself big or small or twisted. You have a good laugh because you know you don’t look like that.

I look at myself and I’m not always pleased with my appearance. I wish I was thinner. I wish my hair wasn’t as frizzy. I wish many things. Not all of it has to do with things that are visible.

When Tom looks at me he sees beauty. I know this because he tells me how beautiful I am everyday of our lives. When I call he answers, “Hello beautiful.” He’ll randomly ask, “How’s my pretty girl doing?” He tells me he loves me everyday.

So whose mirror is distorted? Mine or his?

When God looks at me, He sees the beautiful woman he created. He sees the child that is precious and dear to His heart. He sees the person He thought worthy enough to send His son to die for.

Hmmmm.

God is good. He loves me. Period.

© Nadine Zawacki 2009

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

I’m Married to MacGyver

Tom is many things to me. He is my husband, best friend, lover, encourager, protector, the father of my children. There is so much more I can say but I’m trying not to make some of you OD on sugar.

We have had things break before around our house and Tom’s handy and can fix many things with the proper tools. What I didn’t know until today was I’m married to MacGyver.

Do you remember that show where MacGyver can fix anything with ordinary things around him?

Tom fixed the wireless microphone at church with straw and duct tape. I was quite impressed.

It’s amazing what you can do with a little imagination.

© Nadine Zawacki 2009